Downtime...

Just a few hours ago, I seen my niece, Madison, tear up the stage in the playing of The Nutcracker.  She did a marvelous job!  All the years of hard work to dancing paid off.  I let her know how much of an outstanding job she did, and she told me that it meant a lot to her.

With that being said, I look towards my own children.  I know they are young, but I often wonder about their futures.  I get so wound up with my situation and all that is going on in my own head that it surprises me, sometimes scares me, that I may not be doing enough for them.  I got myself, financially, into a bad situation way before they were born and have been spending too much time trying to keep my head above water.  I'm at my sister's house, during a dinner party mind you, typing a blog instead of socializing, and for the first time in a long time, I do find something disturbing about it.  I really don't have a lot to say.  Way back when, I used to entertain the children, but now, I look pretty silly, even to them, even to me, when I'm trying to break the ice.  I listen to adults all the time talk about their finances, and it makes me feel that I'm cheating myself and my family, because I don't have a story to tell even to myself.  I have these fruitless ideas about how I can make some ends, but I can never seem to save up the seed money to make even a small move.  My children are always acting out, especially when they are around me, and I find myself disciplining them more often that I would like.  We keep going to the same places, and only when I get paid & finish paying the bills.  I ask myself, IS THIS WHAT LIFE IS SUPPOSE TO BE?

I do have some ideas I want to market, so I need to figure out how I can finance it to get it off the ground.  Once I can see the reality I want for myself, I'll use my first money in copywriting all the words my two youngest children created when they were learning to talk.  At the very least, they'll have something that they own that no one can take from them.

New thing for today...you call it NEWS

Hello strangers!!  Real quick, we finally moved to the new house.  The house fits our needs very much; however, it did come with a price.  I'll be uncomfortable for some time, just know that!

12/10/15

I didn't realize that 1) I wrote this, 2) it was never published, and 3) the date it was supposedly published was in October instead of August, when the move actually happened.  Either way it goes, we're settled very nicely in the new house.  God gets the glory, I get the bills!!  Fair trade off! :-)