Trying to find a way to start

Today I spent much of the day trying to keep my 2 yr old out of harm's way.  She is a lot more advanced than other children her age, but she has a very strong will.  She talks back, has a smart mouth, and will fall on deaf ear if she doesn't care about what you are saying.  I try not to handle her too roughly, because I only want to break the bad habits & not her spirit.

The paragraph above was a 2 hour nap and several hours ago.  The weather was so nice, that we walked to the neighborhood school and played at the playground.  It helped take my mind off my troubles, at least for an hour.  Hopefully, if the weather is favorable tomorrow, then we'll be back.

My step-daughter has 1 B and the rest As.  This is great news!  I only wish she was as enthused with getting involved in other aspects of school.  She needs to join a club or participate in some sort of after school activity to tie over her idle time.  I tell her every chance I get to get involved, because colleges look for well-rounded people.  They will let her in with her grades, but they offer scholarship money when you get the grades WHILE you maintain other things.  That's what she needs to shoot for.  This world is too competative for her not to be.

Now it's my turn to be the example and be other than the loud mouth on the sideline telling them what to do.  My only problem is staying focus and really understanding what it is I truly want.  I am still at that crossroad.

Where do I go, what do I do?

The title above tells where my mind is.  I've been trying to figure out how I will survive where I am in this world.  I live south of Chicago, and unless you do work in industries, have a trade, or desire a lower wage job, you won't find too many opportunities.  Like I mentioned in my previous blog, I have been out of work for over three years.  I have all of this education and work experience, and no one seems to care.  No one is giving me a reason to why they are not choosing me.  Four interviews in 3 years is pretty sad.  At times, I do get discouraged, because it doesn't seem to get any better, and other times I'm distracted.  I feel sometimes that my family needs me too much that I can't concentrate on what I can do to help us out financially.  As a man, I feel I need to be the one who is working, but I'm not getting any opportunities.  The must frustrating aspect of it all is getting turned down or ignored for jobs I'm well qualified for.  Talk about a slap in the face!

Bottom line:  since no one will give me a chance, then I will have to create my own path.  Right now, I'm brainstorming all that is inside of me as to what I can offer the world at a fair price.  I want to work with children, point blank, but I can't picture me returning to the classroom to teach again.  That's dead.  That was something I did not enjoy when I was trying to teach.  I didn't like the structure, I didn't like standing in the classroom looking like a doofus, I hated being confined to the classroom, and I hated the criticism and disrespect I endured from it.  I take my hat off to teachers, but that's not for me.  Instead, I want to create an organization that helps students plan for their OWN education, based around their interests and skill sets.  I also want to use that to prove a skill set method I have been for years creating and would someday like to implement to most urban schools.  I'll reveal that information at a later time.  I don't want to give away my secret.

If that fails, I can always try to buy a food cart or a used school bus & convert it into a moving restaurant.  I keep seeing this happen, and it seems to be a sure shot way of making steady income.  People will never get tired of eating, and I cook pretty good food.  I know how to run a business, because I use to do that when I worked for Wawa back in college.

Gotta go!  My little girl woke up from her nap.  Got things to do.